I have so much respect for artists. Writers, dancers, painters, musicians, designers, actors.. I think it really takes a lot of courage to study art or pursue a career in art, especially today where everyone wants to earn money and be rich. Being passionate is very important to me, I think it's that one quality that will keep you going and happy and, I know this unbelievably cliche, it's makes life more beautiful because you have something that you are passionate about.
I think everyone is born an artist. Everyone feel, and when you feel something, you express it. Babies cry to express their unhappiness, children draw how they view the world, it just comes naturally. But when we grow older, we learn to keep our feelings to ourselves, because we are supposed to be mature, sensible, we are supposed to be 'adults'. But artists feel, because expressing important than being sensible, because we see so much more beauty that way.
I wish I had the courage enough to do that. It's so easy to chose the conventional path, study science, get a degree in science and there would be tons of jobs to chose from out there that you'll won't have a hard time earning money. It's easier to chose what's realistic and safe than to chose to do what you're passionate about. That's why I have so much respect for artist.
I remember asking a representative from an Art School in UK during a university convention about a course interior design, and it was when she told me I won't be able to study that because I don't study art for A levels and I don't have a portfolio, that it hit me. What I'm I even doing, studying the science course? I'm not good at it and I absolutely hate it. I'll never feel the way about sciences the way I feel when I draw, when I'm learning about international history and politics. And I won't be able to chose to study courses that I like university, I'm regretting so terribly for dropping art because 'my studies are more important'. There are many who, when asked what they regret in life, would reply with nothing because it made them who they are today. I don't think I'd ever feel this way. I will always regret that choice I made in primary 6. I wish there had been someone to tell me that there is nothing less important about art and to go for it. I'm so frustrated at myself, what was I thinking?
Singapore really needs to rethink her educational system. There is so many science and Chinese subjects offered during secondary school and in JC and barely a handful of arts and humanities course. Oh sure, you want to develop students who are creative thinkers, you want to make Singapore into a arts hub, but with all these emphasis on sciences are you providing enough choices and opportunities to make that happen? I'm not putting the blame on someone else, it's entirely my fault for choosing what I'm studying today, but I think things would had been different if there was a better environment for artistic pursuits in schools. Ahhh, c'est la vie. For those who are still pursuing your passion: respect.
This have been a rant and half of it doesn't even make sense. Hmmm, I live in my head too much sometimes. I wish I was able to express myself better, this sounded so much better in my head and now that I've typed it out, it sounds stupid and insignificant. Anyway, today I found out that there's a design school/ uni in Singapore. They offer fashion design, interior design and everything. Be right back, wallowing in self-pity.
Labels: Musings, School
Post a Comment