So after 5 years.. I'm going to start drawing again. This is probably not the best time to start doing this, with the heavy workload from school and all but I think it'll be good for me. It started yesterday when I was doodling on my notes for the millionth time during lessons instead of paying attention (haha opps), my friend shook his head and tsk-ed me at the end of the period and I realised that I couldn't help it, it's instinctive for me to draw whenever. And I realised that it's better to 'come to peace' with the fact that I'll never be able to study/ do anything that is artistic in nature, but even so, I should never give it up. It brings me pleasure like music and books do. I would really like to improve in my skill even if it is purely as a hobby. Although after 5 years of not drawing seriously, I probably won't be able to draw/ paint as well as when I was 13, the drawings would probably be terrible. Let's see how it goes.
I have this black leather bound notebook that I use to clip in articles and writings that are inspiring (eg. Secrets of French Girls by Ellen Wallace), those blank pages need to be filled in, I'm gonna start carrying it around with me, along with my set of softlead pencils. Just need to stop thinking that I'll ruin it, it's so pretty!
“Every one of us is losing something precious to us… Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again. That’s what part of it means to be alive. But inside our heads- at least that’s where I imagine it- there’s a litle room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library. And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards. We have to dust things off every once in a while, let fresh air in, change the water in the flower vases. In other words, you’ll live for ever in your own private library.”
- Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
Comfortable - John Mayer
This wonderful song has been on repeat the past few days, the lyrics are really nice. I will always be a fan of John Mayer.
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